I wish I had a river, I could skate away on

I live in Michigan. My heart lived here, my family, my home. So why do I want to run away from here? I have moments where I picture not living in this house any more, and I become so sad. I have lived in this house my whole life. I have the option of moving to florida for a few months for a job, and I am so scared. I want to be able to go, but I don't think I can. I live my life by what if's. And thinking about leaving makes me feel so many of them. What if I get lonely, what if I miss home, or my family or my dog. What if something bad happens to any of them when I leave. I always seem to be able to leave things behind, so why not now? Moving into a new apartment, not so scary. Moving away where I wont be able to come to my house and sit and know that it's my home. I can't do. So why does a part of me want to go.